Thursday, June 1, 2017
Second-to-Last Day of School
I am at home with my kids. This is not how I planned to spend today. I was going to meet a friend for coffee, then make one last kid-free trip to Trader Joe's before summer vacation. But no.
The phone rang at 6:15 a.m. A recorded message from the school district. A shooting threat made against the middle and high schools. Police presence, security guards hired. All schools to remain open. Contact the school office if your child will be absent.
I sat on the edge of the bed listening to my third grader pour himself some cereal. My seventh grader was in her room brushing her hair. I started weighing risk in my head and a thought came to the surface like a bubble released from the deep, dark ocean floor. I should not have to be making this decision.
I took a breath to steady myself then told Valerie about the threat and that I would be keeping her home today. She glared at me. Her friends at school are the highlight of her life right now.
In the kitchen, Andrew asked, "Why?" I said, "It's probably just a joke." Then he asked if he could play Minecraft.
This is the first time since the kids have been in public school that a threat has been directly made at one of their sites. I have wondered in the past if it would ever happen and how I would react. Now I know. I emailed absence notifications to the school secretaries.
I hate being in this position. I want to let my kids be at school. I want to trust that they will be safe. But I cannot.
Most days I feel pretty resilient in this world. Not today.
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This is my biggest dear each day as Erik goes to school that something will happen to him there and I will be powerless to help him.
ReplyDeleteI meant "fear"
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