Friday, May 2, 2014

The Dish Ran Away With the Spoon

It seems I have forgotten how to eat.  And I think it happened about five years ago, which is really sad.

When Valerie started kindergarten, mornings got really crazy.  I stopped eating breakfast.  Well, I stopped eating breakfast at home.

I started getting a mocha plus muffin/croissant/scone nearly five days a week.  I am not proud of this.  That's way too much money down the drain.  And for the past few years, I have made a good effort to not buy coffee shop food so often, also not to get the sugary beverages.

That, combined with starting to exercise again, at first brought my weight down a bit, then held me at a pretty steady plateau for a couple of years.

But lately, little by little, the pounds I lost have come back.  Almost all of them.  Despite the fact that I now rarely buy food with my unsweetened coffee.

So here I am, in my very early forties, trying to figure out how to eat again.  It should be a no-brainer.  But part of the problem is that I simply would rather not.

I'd rather not have to eat at all.  I don't enjoy cooking or preparing food for my family (I know, bad mama), but I, of course, do.  So, when it is just me, the last thing I want to do is spend more time in the kitchen.

Sometimes I eat gluten-free toast for breakfast (because it's supposed to better for you than regular bread, right?), but that is unusual because of the crazy-get-the-kids-to-school-on-time mornings.  Enter snacking.  I do eat a banana almost everyday.  And way too many chocolate covered almonds.  There, I said it.  

These past few months, I have been trying to eat some kind of lunch (yogurt, nuts and raisins) after I bring Andrew home from school and while he is having his healthy afternoon snack.  Later, I will sneak some more chocolate if there is any left in the house.  I also eat some of whatever I make for dinner--which most often includes some kind of vegetable.  And, scout's honor, I usually don't eat anything after that.

Things have got to change.  But how?  It's like my good sense has up and run off, a la the dish and the spoon.

It seems so obvious, but it is so irritating.  I think I have to make myself take the time to eat healthy.  And/or I need ideas for quick healthy snacks.

When I was on the "nursing diet" for the year after Andrew was born I lost so much weight it scared me a little.  But I was not too skinny according to any chart.  I am 5'4" and I weighed 125--I had reached my goal weight. I love the way my body looked.  I bought some new clothes.

I want to be able to wear those clothes (comfortably) again.

So, dear reader, if you have advice, want to commiserate,  or just say "hi", I'd love to hear from you!


  1. I joined weitwatchers online and they simply encouage good habits and to record everything you eat...only thing that works for me....portion size and lots of fruits, veggies and every thing I love and lose weight....only eat whole natural packaged stuff.

  2. oh man, I hear you sister! I have dropped a couple of pounds by cutting out the bread and pasta. But I have been cheating lately...oops. My belly was flatter a few months back!! Good luck

  3. Portion control, throw in mostly veggies into your family meals, make the kids lunches and one for you!! walking/running, swimming, leg lifts that make your tummy sore the next day!! But we are not 20 yrs old anymore, and we have to get to a healthy body that we are happy with. I am happy to be healthy and although a few pounds lighter would be nice, I am quite happy... being a perfect me at ANY size:)
    With that attitude... the pounds come off faster because you actually want to work out with a positive attitude!
    Girl you are beautiful, no matter what!!