Friday, May 2, 2014

The Dish Ran Away With the Spoon

 
It seems I have forgotten how to eat.  And I think it happened about five years ago, which is really sad.

When Valerie started kindergarten, mornings got really crazy.  I stopped eating breakfast.  Well, I stopped eating breakfast at home.

I started getting a mocha plus muffin/croissant/scone nearly five days a week.  I am not proud of this.  That's way too much money down the drain.  And for the past few years, I have made a good effort to not buy coffee shop food so often, also not to get the sugary beverages.

That, combined with starting to exercise again, at first brought my weight down a bit, then held me at a pretty steady plateau for a couple of years.

But lately, little by little, the pounds I lost have come back.  Almost all of them.  Despite the fact that I now rarely buy food with my unsweetened coffee.

So here I am, in my very early forties, trying to figure out how to eat again.  It should be a no-brainer.  But part of the problem is that I simply would rather not.

I'd rather not have to eat at all.  I don't enjoy cooking or preparing food for my family (I know, bad mama), but I, of course, do.  So, when it is just me, the last thing I want to do is spend more time in the kitchen.

Sometimes I eat gluten-free toast for breakfast (because it's supposed to better for you than regular bread, right?), but that is unusual because of the crazy-get-the-kids-to-school-on-time mornings.  Enter snacking.  I do eat a banana almost everyday.  And way too many chocolate covered almonds.  There, I said it.  

These past few months, I have been trying to eat some kind of lunch (yogurt, nuts and raisins) after I bring Andrew home from school and while he is having his healthy afternoon snack.  Later, I will sneak some more chocolate if there is any left in the house.  I also eat some of whatever I make for dinner--which most often includes some kind of vegetable.  And, scout's honor, I usually don't eat anything after that.

Things have got to change.  But how?  It's like my good sense has up and run off, a la the dish and the spoon.

It seems so obvious, but it is so irritating.  I think I have to make myself take the time to eat healthy.  And/or I need ideas for quick healthy snacks.

When I was on the "nursing diet" for the year after Andrew was born I lost so much weight it scared me a little.  But I was not too skinny according to any chart.  I am 5'4" and I weighed 125--I had reached my goal weight. I love the way my body looked.  I bought some new clothes.

I want to be able to wear those clothes (comfortably) again.

So, dear reader, if you have advice, want to commiserate,  or just say "hi", I'd love to hear from you!

3 comments:

  1. I joined weitwatchers online and they simply encouage good habits and to record everything you eat...only thing that works for me....portion size and lots of fruits, veggies and protein...eat every thing I love and lose weight....only eat whole natural food...no packaged stuff.

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  2. oh man, I hear you sister! I have dropped a couple of pounds by cutting out the bread and pasta. But I have been cheating lately...oops. My belly was flatter a few months back!! Good luck

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  3. Portion control, throw in mostly veggies into your family meals, make the kids lunches and one for you!! walking/running, swimming, leg lifts that make your tummy sore the next day!! But we are not 20 yrs old anymore, and we have to get to a healthy body that we are happy with. I am happy to be healthy and although a few pounds lighter would be nice, I am quite happy... being a perfect me at ANY size:)
    With that attitude... the pounds come off faster because you actually want to work out with a positive attitude!
    Girl you are beautiful, no matter what!!

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